You know you're crushing on someone when...
Saturday, July 30, 2005 // 8:57 PM
You know you're crushing on someone when:
you get overly self-conscious,
you start asking your best friend if she/he thinks your crush is cute or not,
your heart starts playing the bongo drums when your eyes meet and/or if you even see the person,
you giggle like nuts at the thought of him/her,
you notice the person more and more and he/she seems to appear everywhere,
and most importantly...
the person starts appearing in your dreams!
your mood starts getting better,
you suspect your best friend of liking him/her too, even though they deny it and say that person is SO not their type,
you start wondering if he/she is already taken.
how do i know how you're feeling?(if you find yourself in the above cases)
cos i'm crushing on someone too!
read earlier entries and you should know. and no, he's not from zhps
just a waste of time... ...
// 5:06 PM
hey i'm back! woke up at 7:30am today and was just thinking to myself... which secondary school should i go to? i mean depending on my results... hopefully their good... i was thinking of first choice maybe and hopefully... Raffles Girls'?? and second choice Singapore Chinese Girls'?? third maybe my mum's and aunt's and sister's school... Crescent girls. CHIJ is not bad too... but i have no idea where the school is!! i really like rgs cos my godsis is there and she tells me the nice stuff there. plus, they have lotsa ccas... i want to join something like tennis or rock-climbing, and maybe... dance!! that'll show everyone how 'graceful' i am... muahahahaha!!! but seeing all these stuff... makes me think of what all these 'life stuff' add up to. i mean, you can have a phd or a doctorade, or whatever whatchamacallit, but that doesn't make you the person you were meant to be, it doesn't make you any different from other people. it doesn't mean have the right to grade others... which is what most of the people nowadays do... i remember this story i read from the bible... abt Jesus and some of his disciples at the temple of god or smthing. a rich man came in and poured huge sums of money out onto this thing holding all the offerings. and a poor old lady came in and gave two gold coins. but Jesus was happy with the poor lady, rather than the rich man. he said, the rich man had given a lot of money, but that was not all that he had, but the old lady had given god everything that she had...i think that if i were standing there, or if any one of us were to see that, we would have thought that the rich man were better. i think we must all learn to look deeper, not just on fame, richness, or even beauty. these are just earthly things, remember what we will get from above! 'do not store for yourself treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and thieves break in and steal. but store up for yourself treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, where your heart will also be.' Matthew 6:19-21
School begins
Thursday, July 07, 2005 // 7:46 PM
Heyheyhey...
school has begun and its that time of the year when you finally realise how unfit you really are. yups. my NAPFA tests have begun also. Uggh. how i hat running 1.6... ... and doing sit ups, and pull ups, and running 4/100m in 11 secs... don't remind me. nothing can be as bad as that... i'd much rather do a dozen exam papers than run. heyheyhey... but being unfit does NOT mean that i'm out of shape as well... just really weak... yup, i'm a bronze holder, and proud of it. in fact i don't really enjoy sports much, unless i'm watching it. i mean everyone knows i'm a horrible player at basketball, and nobody throws me the ball anyway. Anyway i wish school never started. my so-called best friend of five years is like sort of not so close as we used to be. everything she does is with wynne, her partner in everything. and they don't understand. they don't know that i feel so so left out when they group up with their exco members. i know i'm not one of them... i know i'm not fit to be with them... and joselin just makes it even worse. she's not tactful, and makes me feel even worse next to her. they make me feel like i'm an outsider, like i'm too much of an embarassment to be seen with. sometimes i just feel like crying... i feel that i don't even have someone i can trust... someone i know will always be there for me... and it makes me feel empty inside... like there isn't anyone i can lean on... and i'm going to school with a mask, which hides all my pain... my sorrow... nobody ever understand... i have more depth than they think, not just the person they see i am....