Monday, October 31, 2005 // 7:57 PM
~the world spins, but leaves its roamers lost, in past, present and future~
todays rehearsal went well. and so did yesterdays church service. parents left to the contractors' today. picking the tiles for renovations. looks like i'll be busy these few days. its not fair, either. wednesday will be our basketball semi-finals, but instead of cheering on my class as i hoped, i'll be cooped up in the hall practising for the musical. they say we need the extra practice. it was supposed to start only at 10:00am, but mrs loh says 7:30 am instead. phooeey. unfair, i cry inwardly. hmmph. i really want to watch the results. see if we win. and cheer the players on. watch the score rise. feel the intensity. sigh. i guess we must listen to the teachers.tmrw is deepavali, so happy deepavali to all the tamils out there. :) nad can't wait for hari raya puasa. she says the first thing she'll eat is her chocolate. haha. :) i really feel bad eating in front of her. but another three days and she'll be eating too. can't believe they can find strength to go on, esp when you see others enjoying a meal. thats what impresses me abt them. self-control. :) so bored. i've been living a routine lifestyle for the past week. 6am wake up. catch the 6:35am bus. reach schl 7am. musical rehearsal at 10am. eat lunch at 1pm. 1:30pm 2nd rehearsal. then go home at 3:30pm. take a bath once i reach home. then flip thru the newspapers. use computer. update blog/go online. watch channel 8 frm 8pm to 10pm. sigh. then sleep. and the cycle repeats. *sigh* lately the musical ppl got props managers too. though now i'm confused. there seems to be more than two. at first was darren and weiyi frm 6G. then today another guy added in. aiyah. dunno lah. confusing. izdhihar is now the stepmother, no more a narrator, so its left w nad and i. hmm. she took over lis. so now lis will be playing the violin. yup.
~[drama queen]~ overandout
Thursday, October 27, 2005 // 5:20 PM
today didn't go well agn. whole class got scolded by mrs lee-toh. firstly, she was mad bcos she wanted wynne to go for her chinese dance practice, but wynne was needed for captains' ball, who played for it in the end. (and won) and the rest of the chinese dancers wanted to watch the matches and cheer for our class. plus they also promised the instructor that they'd practice until 12pm just to watch it for a few minutes when they were to end at 10am. so she wasn't too happy abt them watching the match and not dancing. so she glared at them frm upstairs. then after the matches, we all went back to class. but we were going to return to the hall where she was. we were supposed to follow her, but that moment we kinda forgot, so jason came in to remind us. we walked over and she was standing at the staircase glaring. oops. then she started her complaining/scolding. bleah... then she left us there. and em3 ppl walk past, heard everything... sigh... so embarassing... then they laugh... anyway, gmh, lis and i went to talk to mrs lim, and she told the rest of the class to go eat recess. and later in class she talked to us in her usual, calm manner. communication is very important, she said. understood mrs lim. she is soo sweet. ooh. sweeter than candy floss. and understanding. sigh.. if only everyone were like her... oh back to the story. and vic apologised to her, along w some others. but wad did she do? she said, 'i'll nv forgive u' pls. so dramatic one...DramaQueen. overandout
[life is so not a bed of roses...]
Wednesday, October 26, 2005 // 5:20 PM
weelll... today did not go well.. for me... started w me helping mrs lee-toh packing the grandparents day postcards and placing them in the teachers in-trays... which was pretty boring. and grace, clh and jane webut what to do... gmh asked me to go w her so i go lor.. re there too. guess they couldn't get along... and l8r went to see mrs raj... to try on the costumes.. and l8r just told her that i dun wanna b emcee.. she looked angey/sad. how? i felt sooooooooooo bad abt it... didn't noe wad to do... almost cried during recess... noone could make me laugh... i even didn't feel embarrassed when ansong followed gmh and me.. sigh... anyway by the time i went for rehearsal i felt ok... mrs lim talked to me abt it too.. she seemed pretty flustered.. busy i guess... yar and l8r after schl during the 2nd rehearsal i was kinda mad at mr s (do not ask who).. cos he was like, teasing lily abt her dancing as a white bird in the schl play. bird. the winged animal for those sickos out there. haha. anyway he said she danced like a ungraceful ostrich or smthing.. anyway it was pretty annoying.. and he was laughing and laughing like it was the funniest joke ever. not funny. and so did the other teachers.. okok lets get it straight... i am not flaming him. he is nice, but he hurt lily's feelings. and as a teacher, i feel he should not do that. she was embarrassed.. and it lowered her self-esteem.. and i guess i felt bad for her... but no one dared to tell him... i was pretty much disgusted... i guess maybe cos i nv had such a teacher.. he is soooo not like mrs lim...far frm it...haha... but he is very close w his class... like he is one of them. he eats w them, talks their talk, blahdeedah. the works, ya know.. but he's someone a student can relate to...which is good...i think.. hmmph.. charlotte. drama queen. over and out. [feeling lost]
+[ll* time of my life*ll]+
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 // 7:22 PM
sigh... so tired after today's musical rehearsal.. but have to get used to it leh... for the rest of the wk it's gonna b lidat liao... but its cool w me... i mean, how many ppl have the chance to be in this musical and do their bit for the schl b4 they leave? not many. so, look on the bright side. things aren't that bad. i guess... the day started w the inter-class games, today against 6S. heard that they were to be rough yesterday from someone. but we won them in basketball! :) haha. 77-0 leh... very good :)... and know the class goal w be 100-0. it's gonna b tough, now that the better classes are beginning to stand out. but... we can do it lor... esp w jason and zhi hao on our side. haha. their like, our class' best players. yup. kinda upset/sad/happy. ok it's mixed feelings actually. haha. cos mrs raj wants me to b the emcee for next wks deepa-raya festival. me and gmh actually. but she specially asked for me, according to mrs lim. i guess i'm supposed to b happy. but well... i'm just not looking forward to it. i don't want to emcee agn. it's like the weirdest thing to be. in school i mean. i mean, won't ppl get bored of seeing me on stage, all the time, saying the same things? 'welcome to the ___ 2005! i'm your emcee for today, charlotte.' even i get tired of saying it.....:my extended family :):..
Monday, October 24, 2005 // 7:44 PM
Heya... today was pretty much an ok day.. my class won two out of three matches in the inter-class games, against 6K. cool... basketball and captain's ball...haha...i was c-ball's reserve...yup. which doesn't need u to do much.. cos all the members were fine.. and good players. haha. i, for one, am a total klutz in sports. i mean, i'm ok, but thats it. ok. not good or a strong player. i'm average.. but nvm.. sports was nv my strong point anyway. yup i have a huge family. two, actually. one is my real family. consists of my sister, amanda, father and mother, and all the other realatives. my second 'family' consists of four older sisters, one younger sister, one twin sister, a daughter (haha!), niece, grandmother, great-grandmother, great-great-grandmother, and grand-aunt. yup. the older sisters are my sworn sisters, Huan Ting(da-jie), Yi Tong(er-jie), and the closest to me, Joy! (san-jie). the other sister is the latest one, and the oldest, Mel. uh, Melissa Ko. yup. twin sis is Jeannette, and her daughter (a.k.a my niece) is annabelle. uh, who is also her husband. or is it her wife? ugh. can't remember. grandmother is Yi hui, grand-aunt is foong ming, great-grandma is jia en. that is my dg family. it brings us closer together. sort of. haha. sigh... todays rehearsal was cool. but...i've got mixed feelings after it. i mean, i'm glad that i'm one of the three shortlisted narrators, but then again, only 2 of us will be in. it will be sad for any of us to go. and i'm sorry that nurhayati was ousted. i know many ppl blame me.. and i guess news of it is going around fast. even mrs lim talked to me abt it. i guess i was feeling better after the talk w her until the auditions...sigh... i've been having 2nd thoughts abt it... dunno whether i shld back out... even though i didn't , i feel like i cheated. and evryone is like... hypocritical around me, lying to me, telling me it's not my fault and stuff... but actually i know how they feel. tell me your thoughts. i want to know what you think. so tag or tell me personally in school. should i back out or not? and give up the dream i've been having for the past 2 yrs? i guess only time will tell...Charlotte
*[me, myself, i]*
Saturday, October 22, 2005 // 8:01 PM
heya. tired today. *yawnsie* renovations...argh argh arrrggggghhhhhh* moving stuff frm our block to grandparents... which is practically next door...haha... so must move stuff over. yupyup.. and i wrapped a whole box of ceramic stuff...piece by piece... using newpaper lah... which can get reeeeeeaaaallllly boring. you only will understand if you get to do it yourself. now staying at their house... yay! my dad fixed our computer over... plus internet access! yay! so happy... and lately i find myself helping ppl do up their tagboard.. which is cool w me...haha.. yup i like helping ppl...haha... i am weird sometimes...and next week musical practices the whole week... yay! fun... and i can tell some ppl aren't too happy abt me auditioning as narrator... i wish i didn't too... now seeing how unhappy others are... me and darren agree that the school should b coming up with more interesting school plays.. which is totally true. and he said they shld have a warcraft musical. cool, i say! interesting, i mean, other than the brothers' grimm fairy tales year after year... sigh... guess i g2g now...tata...charlotte
+[*one of these days*]+
Thursday, October 20, 2005 // 9:31 AM
two words: utterly gross. thats all i have to say abt those barely-noticeable-but-still-on-my-forehead-spots. why me? i mean, i drink that detoxifying barley grass drink, plus lots of water, cleanse, foam, tone and moisturise my face daily, and exfoliate and use the blackhead removal thingy weekly. (this is not called vain, for those ignorant guys out there, this is maintainence! ) so why the spots...boohoo... sigh... this maybe one of the last entries for the next few months... *sobsob* cos my house is gonna b under renovation next week... so i'll b moving to my grandparents place which is across the road... and they dun have a computer!!! argh!! help! and their tv is practically stuck to the chinese channel 24/7! double argh!!! *sobsobsobsob* at least next week i'll be to busy in school preparing for the musical to have time for these stuff... looks like quite some people are not happy... its either with me or mr seah... cos i guess they think he has favourtism towards his own students and me...cos theres a rumour saying that he's sorta decided on izdihar and me for narrator.. but it's just a rumour... i guess those unhappy are those who wanna try out for narrator too... don't they know that i am like, so sensitive to this kind of things? and i am feeling kinda down when i think of it.. sad... yup this is like, my fav LOTR pic... :) legolas is soo cute! plus the sepia effect makes it even better... haha... this is oso my hi5 pic... yeah yesterday i watched national treasure on dvd.... love that show cos its like, u don't need to think! i mean , they just lay out everything for you... which i totallly like! guess i like jerry bruckheimer films... esp pirates of the carribean! yay! cos it also has my fav actor in it! orlando bloom rox! yay!! yup he's also legolas... (see above pic) waaayyy... cute! okie mum's having some classes and i'm gonna have one of the last msn chats now! l8r! overandout...
..::its over, but why am i so lost::..
Friday, October 14, 2005 // 7:50 PM
hey ya! yupyup 3 days after psle liao... but i find myself more lost than ever... i mean smtimes i'll be sitting around relaxing/watching tv/using computer and i'd be feeling guilty... than i will tell myself, charlotte after your resting must go back to studying... b4 slapping myself on the head... theres nothing to study for! ugh. yup i auditioned for narrator in the school musical, which is pretty cool... hansel and gretel... cool. sort of... i think the others auditioning are angry at me... esp 1 of them i think... better not add fuel to the fire... so i shall not touch on this topic anymore... yay! theres gonna b a end of the year class party! :) should be at alicia's place... inter class games were kinda fun too... our soccer was bad... lost 6-0... captains' ball... i dunno... i think our class c-ball team did their best... and thats most important... basketball was our best! we won 27-2 to 6H and 50-0 to 6R... Yay! but i worry that if we play against better classes like 6Valour... their team very strong leh... they have the schools' basketball team captain! uh oh... but if everyone just puts in our best, i believe we stand a chance even against them... :) thats what really counts, isn't it? yup so i shld be going soon! bye....:yesterday is history, tmrw is a mystery:.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005 // 4:12 PM
ooh!! psle is finally over! yay!! mrs lim says dat she'll b screening 1 of my fave movies... day after tmrw! in class... its a really cool show abt global warming... ooh! those are such freaky words! speaking of which, the weather is getting worse here in singapore... hotter and hotter... my neighbour said that the day is coming, and so did my dad last night. the day as in the end of the world... i'm scared... i'm not ready to go... u noe... i mean i haven't gotten to life's greatest moments... going on my first date, getting married (i think) and falling in love... getting my own job and my first paycheck... i don't think i wanna go yet! *sniffles* aiyah i shouldn't b thinking of these stuff... that's why the heading for todays posting is one of the sayings that planted a great change in my life...'yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery; today is a gift, that's why it's called the present'. makes sense to me... we shld be making the best out of every day... putting in our best to enjoy and savour every moment... oh yeah just got my msn account lately... pretty fun if u ask me... and mi sis is calling me miss melodramatic... yeah it fits me quite well... melodrama... it means behaving with a lot of emotion and excitement... yup thats me...:) haha... heya i just cut my hair today... how can i put it...? it's very different from mi normal look... abit wild... but i like it..! sorta makes me look like mel ko... melissa ko... heehee... she's veri funny... sec 4 this yr... oooh... end of psle... oso means those 26 days are finally over! cos i started counting 19 days b4 psle... and oso means that i haf 2 gif mi verdict on feng kai... whether i like him or not... ummm lets just say maybe... shiqi said start off as frens and 'fa zhang' frm there... if i want lah... thats quite good oso... and i oso dun noe him too well which is y i think he's ok... gmh those not have a good impression of him... cos she 'takes care' of their class during assembly... and apparently all the guys misbehave lah... yup... guys will be guys... u just haf 2 forgive them... pretty playful... yup maybe we could try to get to noe each other... i suppose that would oso b 'giving him a chance' as shiqi sez... and speaking of shiqi... we rilly went nuts after the hmt paper todey... running across the field and screaming... it was fun! :) we really let loose... feels so much better to have the weight off my shoulders... yay! its over! lets partay! lets have fun! oooh... school has sooo much prepared 4 us! the end of the year musical (hansel and Gretel), inter class games, and i think we shld b going 4 field trips... ahhh... so fun... eeeeeeeee! oh yeah, i'm going for dinner at plaza l8r... sooo... signing off now! byeee!!!.:lets get over it and done with...:.
Sunday, October 09, 2005 // 5:16 PM
heylo... 2 more days to the end of psle... can't wait :p so i just wanna get over and done w it... guess wat? fk dun like mi animore! yay! muaha... at least i'm not so pitiful like shiqi... followed by jt practically everywhere... u noe i think on weds he was hiding behind a pillar w sam peeking at her... she shld really explain to him... but she sez she has... lol.. so it's not working... this jt hor... so insistent... sigh sum guys jus dun get the hint that she dislikes him to bits... at least i didn't need to tell fk to back off... haha... but he's quite cute as in like he lets his frens bully him... hmmm... but they're shorter than him...haha of course, he's so tall! sorta like moi... oways bullied by mi shorter friends... boohoo... dun no y they call me very gong... m i?? haha... aniwae it's just harmless joking... not really bothered by it... Oooh yeah i haf a huge announcement to make... :) i, charlotte wang ziwei, has gotten over o.s.g for good! yup i dun like him liaoz...dun ask y leh, k? yup in other words... i'm single! (and lovin' it) at least i dun feel so stressed up if he likes blahblahblah or wad he thinks of moi... cos i'm not interested!! yay! anyone interested in taking the place in mi heart? haha jk... dun take moi seriously... hmmm... wad to do now... bloghop! mi fave thing to do other than listening to music and shopping! tata!..::someone to lean on...someone to trust::..
Saturday, October 08, 2005 // 4:57 PM
feeling down lately... dun noe why... just so tired... maybe it's because of the psle... or maybe cos i've been thinking a lot... i find myself hypcritical when i'm outside... like when i put on a smile when i'm actually sad... i need someone there for me... someone i can lean on... someone whom i can share my woes with and who can put up with my rants and raves... someone i can trust will not expose my secrets.. just someone who understands... is that too much to ask for? i dun mind if its a guy or gal... but somehow i feel lonely even when surrounded by friends... maybe someone who i can talk to, relate to understand. someone whom i can have endless chats with... and have fun... is loyal and faithful...yup. that fits the bill for a best friend... maybe i shld consider putting up an ad for one... haha :) but rite now i prefer to be the same happy-go-lucky gal i love being.. so yeah... to tell the truth... 6v guys are not as bad as i thought... when u get to noe them a little better... they sure make good friends... loyal, helpful but just a little nosy... but thats alright... everyone has a little curiousity in them... :)new skin
Sunday, October 02, 2005 // 6:27 PM
heya evryone! like my new skin?? i lurve it... :) // 5:45 PM
heya yup i'm back! todays church was great, and the song wei en played was really worth thinking abt, i mean like our church does have a bit of cliques, so the words were rather meaningful for us. i guess cos i grew up in this church, i don't really know what it's like to be unaccepted. same thing in school... i mean cos it seems that everyone has their own group to hang out with, we've never really understood what it's like to be an 'outcast'. but i know. sort of. well, don't wanna think of my bad memories. must be optimistic, charlotte! yup yup. so these lyrics from 'if we are the body' really struck me. yeah i know the song, but i didn't really go into the words and sorta read between the lines. i guess it's good now to be able to think abt it and let it sink in... well i suppose that it's just like human nature to clique up and leave some people behind without realising it. and does left behind are those who are, well, just 'uncool'. if you get what i mean. thinking abt it, it makes me feel guilty for doing it, even though i knew they feel out of place. but i well... don't wanna be seen differently from my friends... although i know it's not right... and risk losing my friends... sigh... the thing with people... we are such complex beings...