Monday, February 27, 2006 // 7:59 PM
ooh i'm so excited about our malacca trip! 1 more day to independance :). hmm but it'll be weird without the grownups around. boo i won't be going for church camp this year. so sad leh. for the first time in like.. well a really long time i won't be there. cos my parents say ' your sister needs to study for her o levels' fine by me. sigh.geez my classmates are way weird. i mean it. first week of school one was like, 'do you plan on becoming a model when you grow up?' into the first month 'what's your waist line?' and then there was the 'you're so skinny' and 'are you dieting?'. the thing is, if you eat more than usual they say 'careful or you'll be fat next time' and a mouthful less will be, 'are you anorexic?' for the record, i am not skinny, not dieting, not anorexic, not planning on being a model when i grow up. even classmates thinner than me say, 'charlotte, why are you so sticky(stick-like)?' Ooohkay. i remember a back issue of teen vogue speaking that white girls as in the americans tend to want to be skinny, whereas the african american embrace shape. why is this so? being skinny is definitely not cool. clothes don't fit you well, you look frail and sickly, people say you're anorexic and the comments flow in. whats the big idea about people nowadays dieting and all? as my father will say, inner beauty beats external anyday. beauty, for one, is skin-deep. a guy can marry the worlds most beautiful woman, but lets face it, we all will age and whatever beauty that was there is poof! gone. be yourself! let me make an example: girl A is pretty and rich but she curses like a pirate, swears like nobodies business, has no proper etiquette, and is bratty and all. nothing nice about that. putting it simply, she's just not nice.back to the start: i'm not against losing weight or anything but if you're skinny and still think you're fat, go see a doctor. please. theres nothing wrong with being normal. i'm a borderline underweight case and i'm not normal if thats what you're thinking. yes i agree. but i love myself for what i am and thats what i think really counts. all of us should love ourselves cos we're all unique and special and one of a kind. being God's creation, we should be proud of ourselves. if we don't love we, who will?confessions of a teenage dramaqueen: in cinemas 29 marchwhen the dramaqueens let lose, brace yourselves.Charlotte Wang.overandout.
Saturday, February 18, 2006 // 1:45 PM
Okay. I am going to advertise for my choir's upcoming performance. It's on the 28th and 29th of April, and from the way we're training, it's so going to be good. It's at the Victoria Concert Hall, where the echoing is loud and it's classy there. It will last for about 3 hours and i guarantee you, you'll enjoy it. So please, must encourage me! yay!
Now to the point. Whoa Choir training sessions have gone pretty strenuous. But all of them there are so nice. Especially LiShan the Sop1s leader cum Head Prefect cum nicest sec 4 girl who sits next to me. she's super nice. yeah. next tuesday our dance chreographer will be traing us. how fun! heehee and our costumes will be coming soon. i can't wait! we'll be singing our Choral songs and Pop songs from the 70s and 80s like from ABBA, The Supremes and the Beatles, followed by the musical songs, as written by the Sec4s, like Li Shan, Zara, Alyssa and Charlotte. MayAnn (whom i always end up calling mei an) is pretty nice too, and she's from 1GR. yay i'm so psyched abt the whole thing!
sigh being around so many females in the same class can be pretty stressful actually. most of them are from girls schools from the beginning so they are naturally weird, which makes it harder for me to understand them. not that i'm boyish or something but being around guys has made me more sort of laid back. unlike the other girls who are scared of ants. like, its only ants. ants. hello? and they speak behind each others back. a lot. you won't be able to accept it so suddenly if you were thrown into a total different environment like me. they get mad for the slightest reasons. irritate me. they ignore you for silly reasons and it confuses me very much. girls back in primary school weren't like that. we were all pretty easy going. sigh. life just keeps throwing problems in your face.
overandout;
Tuesday, February 07, 2006 // 5:10 PM
ahh my wost fears have come true. i am sick, today with an added fever. boo. i felt pretty sick in class too, and my temperature was around 37.8degs. ahh sad case.
today for phys ed we did touch rugby! yay it was pretty fun actually, though my mom said its kinda 'un-kimgek' for us sc girls. haha i suppose so. desiree and i were like just running back and forth screaming '1, 2, 3!' which was silly. heeheehohohaha.
yayyay today also was my litreature performance where i act as min. ha is was fun cos we made it sillier than it was supposed to be. everyone said it was the best out of the 3 grps that performed today. yay! haha. and our mandolin was actually joey's guitar which is blue! so cool right? yesyes. but won't it be even cooler if it were like, electric purple? totally funk-kay!
today my favourite song is a christian one entitled [the way to begin] by Krystal Meyers. here is an excerpt of it:
Dear God
Its me again down here
Don't wanna sound insincere
I'm lost
Sometimes you're so unclear
What can i do?
I'm feeling so far from you
Frustrated
Irritated
Disconnected from it all
The weight of the world
Has pushed me to the wall
I surrender
To you I'm giving in
Come take me
Save me
I want to start again
I'll open my broken heart
Cause i've reached the end
And you are the way to begin
yeah the lyrics makes me think of myself, kinda. i'll try to use it as the music for my blog. but i doubt they have it leh. nvm its a great song and the lyrics are nice so yeah, you guys should look out for it!
ahh the medicines kicking in. drowsy..
Monday, February 06, 2006 // 6:11 PM
ugh. i'm soo not feeling well. my dose ith sthuffed. my throat hurts. and my head is pounding bad. aghhh. must've gotten the flu from my sister. darn. i hate falling ill. anyhow my mom said yesterday, 'Charlotte, you have a test tomorrow. you have no choice but to go to school.' ok maybe those weren't the exact words but, hey, it was like, along the line so it has to count.
haha. hmm my birthday is in... uh. one and a half month more. ohpooh. i wish it'll hurry a little faster and i'll be 13. yay a real teenager. ha. it still feels pretty funny not being the youngest group in youth ss now. oh well.
chinese new year is almost over now. time to tear down the silly cny decor in my classroom and do it up nicely. ice-cream palour-ishly, now. bother. and i have like totally noo ideas for it. geez why am i so pessimistic today. nvm.
yeah back to my class test. today was science and litreature. ok papers, i suppose. science was so-called easy, as mrs kee says. it was kinda. haha. but i still don't understand the standard form thingy, what with the [any random no.] times 10 to the power of whatever. oh tomorrow i have my litreature performance wher i'm acting as Min in the Mighty Mandarin. and i'm engaged to some guy called Shang in it. it is way hard trying to act in love with another girl who is pretty nuts. ahhh wish me luck.
joe invited me to her church for valentines day and i'm not sure if i should go or not. i'm pretty intersted but i'm not sure if the 'rents will allow. cos they're pretty overprotective, which can be bad at times. like now they're reminding me to eat my fruit for like, the 5th time. duuude. my memory isn't quite so bad. yeah and still that little girl in their eyes. can't wait till i'm 16! thats when i'll finally be allowed to go out with my friends for a long time and have lots of fun! thats also when i'll finally be able to date. yeah how fun. haha. joe says maybe she'll start dating by the next year.