Sunday, October 02, 2005 // 5:45 PM
heya yup i'm back! todays church was great, and the song wei en played was really worth thinking abt, i mean like our church does have a bit of cliques, so the words were rather meaningful for us. i guess cos i grew up in this church, i don't really know what it's like to be unaccepted. same thing in school... i mean cos it seems that everyone has their own group to hang out with, we've never really understood what it's like to be an 'outcast'. but i know. sort of. well, don't wanna think of my bad memories. must be optimistic, charlotte! yup yup. so these lyrics from 'if we are the body' really struck me. yeah i know the song, but i didn't really go into the words and sorta read between the lines. i guess it's good now to be able to think abt it and let it sink in... well i suppose that it's just like human nature to clique up and leave some people behind without realising it. and does left behind are those who are, well, just 'uncool'. if you get what i mean. thinking abt it, it makes me feel guilty for doing it, even though i knew they feel out of place. but i well... don't wanna be seen differently from my friends... although i know it's not right... and risk losing my friends... sigh... the thing with people... we are such complex beings...